09 November 2009

You've Gotta Give, Gotta Give It Away

I've been thinking a lot about sacrificial giving.

Funny how so many things in my life have intersected on that topic this month:

----> When writing a message for church last weekend, God was tugging at my heart to talk about, to challenge people {to challenge myself} to serve through sacrificial giving {of our time, money and stuff}.

----> My church in California has been doing a series called "Be The Church...Change the World" This weekend was week 3. Each week has been so, so good. {In the message I'm listening to now, Kenton is talking about giving more than 100%...I fell asleep thinking about this last night--before this message was up online. Seriously, can you see God working?}

----> I started reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan {after finishing the newest in the Spud series...what a jump}, and in the first chapter, he reminds us that God doesn't beg for a part of us. God asks for all of us...and deserves all of us.

I love when God begins to teach me, so obviously, so clearly. When I can practically hear Him saying:
"HEY! THIS IS WHAT YOU SHOULD BE LEARNING!"

So, I'm in. I'm thinking. I'm spinning this over and over in my head...trying to figure out what this looks like for me. How I can continue to challenge myself {and, hopefully, challenge others} to live in a constant state of sacrificial giving.

Here's where the "logical" {I almost want to say "human"} side of me interjects:
How do I do this without being taken-advantage of? {By some, not by everyone.} How do I do this while still caring for myself and making sure my needs {more emotional needs than physical needs} are met?

But then I know. I know--with everything in me--that, if I choose to give to God--everything...choose to be sacrificial, that He will meet my needs. I say this not because I'm supposed to, but because I truly believe it. Even as I write my "human" concerns, I hear in my heart that those are silly worries. That, of course, God will look out for my emotional {and physical} needs. I can even feel, with complete assurance, that my emotional health will never be better than when I choose to completely forfeit my own comfort--my own excess--for the benefit of others.

Then a new set of "concerns" comes in:
How do I become a person who gives, without hesitating or bailing when I begin to feel the financial intrusion? Without shutting down when I feel emotionally drained? Without choosing to give sacrificially, but only when it feels comfortable?

I don't want to do this half-way.
I want to be in. Completely.

So, I guess I just do it...right?

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