08 June 2009

Still On My Brain...

Even though I don't post here much anymore, I am still thinking about Kitale almost constantly.

This week has been a little rough in the Kenya-side of my brain.

{Some context: I love CA. I love Kitale. I love each of them too much to spend all of my time in only one of them...so the plan has become 2/3 of the year in America, and 1/3 of the year in Kenya. It's been exciting to share this and very strange to say, "well, I don't live in CA year-round"...this week, though, I'm experiencing the other side of that split life.}

I have been looking to purchase a condo here in California; I need a place to live when I'm here. A place that provides some solitude, a place where my stuff can stay out and organized instead of partially in my mom's house, partially in my dad's house and mostly stuffed in a storage unit. After some investigation, it turns out that I can {in theory} pay a mortgage for less than I could pay someone else in rent. So the "shopping" began.

I have a job that I really enjoy: Doug and Jana have been so flexible and encouraging in the conversations about my return to Africa...I am able to, on a weekly basis, be creative and program, be totally administrative and use excel, and respond to emails or have initial phone conversations that allow me to play a small pastoral role. It's great.

But this week, the push came when I began to think about all that was forfeited by my not being in this world year-round. It's tough to fully invest somewhere when you are counting down the weeks until you fly to the other side of the world. It's tough to take more ownership over something you will have to hand back sooner than later.

I began to wonder if "the Kenya plan" was really what God wanted for me...

More soon...

1 comment:

Julie Hibbard said...

Praying for you this morning...
Let me know if you want/need to talk.