**I posted this on my personal blog, but it felt right to post it here, too**
Last month, we attended the So. Cal Connection: a group of JH workers from Southern California who get together to brainstorm and idea-share. At the start, Erika shared her heart for a few minutes...and it was as if God was speaking right to me.
My whole life I've been a planner: internship, college, job, London...always a few steps ahead, with clear, detailed plans made...Now, with Kenya, there are a lot of question marks in my life. After Kenya...job? housing? schooling? No plans...just blanks waiting to be filled in. I've been thinking about this a lot lately. I've always been a planner...so what do I do when I have nothing to plan? Go crazy? Probably.
Then, Erika read this verse:
"Cease striving and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10
I know, right? Couldn't have been more perfect...
Until she read this...
"There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8
I know that God is faithful. I know that He is calling me to go to Kenya. I know I felt that call time and time again. And, yesterday, it became clear that He will continue to confirm His presence and faithfulness through this journey...so I will continue to trust and follow Him.
A few other things people said, in passing, that I thought were slightly profound...they also got me thinking about who I am...
"We can't expect Jr. Highers to get everything while they're in Jr. High. Sometimes it takes me more than two years to get something."
"I was doing something God cared about."
"Sometimes the students who are the most Christian are the least vocal."